Recently we had a meeting about doing more things and being busier… as I said in my last post… I am now quite busy.
BUT something I DID find recently… found shannice’s blog (fellow missionary). LOL funniest thing in the world…
Her blog title is called “Lets be real.” One thing it is not is real… as Aaron said via twitter… no Christian’s blog should be titled that cuz seriously, Christians do not keep things real.
I was reading her blog at night in my tent the other day… my god I seriously could only smile and laugh because I was THAT pissed and it was so 어이없어. Have you ever had that? A time you were so pissed that you could only smile and laugh.
Her blog literally was all bullshit. I wont link her blog since I feel like that’d be kind of too much but I just wanted to quote some of the things she said.
SO this is the gist of the circumstances right now. Me and Josh have had malaria 3 and 4 times now (respectively). We know what it feels like to be sick with it, to be on the horrible medicines to treat it. When people have malaria, it usually takes you out for a week or so. But this girl shannice got malaria for the first time and literally was “sick” for the whole month (more than the month). It’s not like she was THAT sick because she would still come to potluck and eat, come to game nights and have a grand time, stuff like that. And she wasn’t even on quinine, which if you dont know it yet, is the worst medicine for Malaria in terms of how you feel.
SO of course she used her sickness as an excuse to be lazy and do nothing while the rest of us were working and stuff… it’s so easy to use sickness as an excuse here and it’s so obvious when someone does.
Now let’s go to her blog.
“I could take the health problems and the hardship Tchadian culture brings, but the SMs and missionaries are a different story. They flew around half of the world to come and serve people, but they are only serving themselves. They couldn’t even take 3 minutes out of their night to get my test results. I know I have blogged before about the lack of missionary spirit and feeling extremely suffocated here, but things are only getting worse.”
Lol first of all, she did literally shit during the time here. I wasn’t there when she asked the SMs to get her test results but I talked to josh about it and he said that he didn’t wanna get it for her cuz she literally hadn’t done anything in a month and was fed up with her just ordering others around. Which leads to the next thing. WE’RE the ones doing stuff for others. SHE hasn’t done ANYTHING in a very, very long time. And yet she makes it sound like she’s the best missionary. Serving ourselves? Yeah okay. And she has the nerve to say “I don’t know if they recognize what they are doing or not, but I do and I plan to never become how they are” at the end of her paragraph. ROFL really now. Cuz we covered for her and took over her workload for more than a month (like 6 weeks) with her English teaching and project 21 work. But we’re serving ourselves right?
“Truthfully, I am only staying because I came to help the people of Bere in any way I could. I can’t let not-so-mission-orientated missionaries detour me from my goal. Seeing how happy my students are when I walk into the classroom, or the children who come running when I start gymnastics keeps me going. How everyone thanks us multiple times for our health lectures, or how my host children run out to greet me as I come home from work. I can’t even begin to explain how thankful Naomi and her yeast infection clinic are for the help. I can’t let the missionaries stop me from bring the blessing God has planned for these people. I know I was brought here for a reason, and plan to stay and see that that reason is fulfilled.”
This is even funnier cuz now me and Josh are not-so-mission-orientated missionaries who detour her from HER goal. It’s funny cuz when she wrote this she was still “sick” and hadn’t taught English class in a month, hadn’t done gymnastics in a month, no one says thank you at the health lectures, and she doesn’t even go home from work… she hasn’t done work in forever. And she hasn’t done shit for Naomi and her yeast infection clinic… literally it hasn’t even started up again. Oh that reminds me, the picture below shows how she always got Josh to teach (texts). She has that “oh I might teach” but always ends up not teaching. AND she doesn’t even teach anymore. Josh teaches all of the English classes now (I hate kids). But what happened to her happiness that she got when her students saw her walk into the classroom? Her motivation to stay in Tchad? Whooooo knows, all I know is that im a not-so-mission-orientated missionary.
“Many people have come and gone willing to help with anything and everything while others…don’t. Let’s be real. They just sit in their house or SM hut watching TV shows and movies on their computer. At first they were like me. Wanting more work to do because they were bored. However, we have work to do now, but they still sit around and do nothing.
I feel like I am their mother. When there is nothing to do I clean, or try to look for something to keep me busy. These particular people who just sit there as usual.”
This post was written some time ago but it was really funny to me because she talks about us sitting in the SM hut watching TV shows and movies on our computers… (in our free time of course, which we had a lot of before) but SHE watches them too LOL. AND she doesn’t have a computer here (she only brought her ipad) so she takes Josh’s computer without even asking him and watches things on there throughout the day. LOL oh some people are too funny. She doesnt even clean… her and Charis literally fit the stereotype of a 흐긴 girl. And then she ends that post with “I can’t handle the stressors of Tchad and the lack of missionary spirit of others. Please pray for all of us. Satan is working hard to stop our work; I don’t want him to win!” Really?
Honestly, I normally would not care if someone wrote this kind of thing if they were DOING something here. Work or anything. Because blogging can be a way of ranting. I know that since I also use my blog to rant.
But why not rant about other things instead of making up shit about other missionaries and making yourself look like the perfect missionary?
Literally some things are the opposite from what she wrote on her blog. I only put some examples from her blog to get my point across.
What got me to boil over was seeing her literally do nothing today while I was working at the woodshop and Josh was working at the hospital. I mentioned in the beginning of this blog that we had a meeting to get ourselves busier. But literally after that meeting she has still been at the SM hut all day, done nothing, leave the SM hut (so that other people wont see her doing nothing in there) and pretend to do stuff outside. The attached picture: day in the life of shannice baker, the perfect missionary doing absolute shit.
Johnny, you gotta read her blog. You know how she is so when you read her blog youll feel what I feel (well to a point… you only knew her for a month).
The funny thing is, while she makes herself out to be the perfect and most holy missionary through her blog, everyone here knows she does nothing. Zach, the Parkers and the Netteburgs know that she’s been using sickness as an excuse for the past month and a half. Danae even said in the meeting we had that maybe if she cant work because she’s feeling that “sick” and has been for more than a month like she has been, then maybe she should go home (that induced silence from her). They all also know that I am willing to do anything they ask of me so Tammy and Zach usually always come to me for things to do (same with Josh). I’m not saying this to look good; I could literally care less about my image as a missionary.
But I wonder if she really thinks she’s doing the most work here or if it’s all a tactic to make herself feel/look better and to get attention and sympathy from her friends in America. I really am curious.
Why is it that Christians always pretend to seem holy or perfect in ways when the whole purpose of Christianity is to accept our imperfection? We are all sinners and lacking in many ways… but there is always something to do about it. Talking with other people, I also feel like it’s the number one thing that turns off people from going to church.
I understand that I shouldn’t care about what she does and stuff (in this case it’s more like what she DOESN’T do)… but I couldn’t take it this time.
Her blog is titled lets be real? LET’S BE MOTHER FUCKING REAL.
Sorry im just very ticked off.
the last picture is of the cabinets that i made and have been painting for the past couple days… no primer so the paint gets soaked up in the wood… have to put like 5 coats of paint on it… -.-